it's "deja vu all over again..."
In addition, my Uncle Y----- (he is 75 עמו"ש but you could swear he is 35 when you hear him talking) is in Moshav N-------, and my Aunt L--- (-who just turned ninety-three עמו"ש!) is in a Bet Avot in Yerushalayim, not to mention her children-my cousins-and my Uncle's kids and their kids who are in various places around the country. And that's only family, not even mentioning friends (whom I have from the Golan to the Gush. Used to have friends in the Negev, but they moved to the Golan!) I don't think I can live like this much longer. Our plans for aliyah aren't jelling for a while yet - my husband says the company isn't quite ready to shell out the extra $$$ it would take - it could be years.
I feel we're too old to wait years; don't know how many we have left...
Just had to get this off my chest; my own personal קרב . I suppose what I am looking for is, empathy? or maybe, winning the lottery - that way I could go immediately and buy a place. Hasn't happened yet.