Pesach Musings...A Retrospective
Pesach, I started to say in a previous post (see two down) creates for me and hopefully for my family as well, a major paradigm shift. On the one hand, I can understand why someone would want to 'go away' for Pesach, let us say, to a hotel; the older I get, the more difficult Pesach preparations become, physically. Spiritually however, there is nothing like cleaning out your personal hametz and getting out of your "metzarim" in your own home.
Our seders (hakarat ha-tov to my Father, alav hashalom) are intensly רוחני and kadosh. Our form of "avodat Hashem" is through song. Once one gets through the preparations & cooking - no easy feat - it is the most intense, wonderful chag, bringing me to a dimension not normally revealed in the world of חול . (I guess you could also say that I am not one of those M-O's - 'moneyed Orthodox- that might have something to do with the fact that I don't go away for Pesach...! ) Pesach changes reality to a spiritual dimension, not fully seen ("nistar") in everyday life. I am always in a kind of brief - grief (am I a poet, or what?!) at the end of the chag (holiday)...I don't want it to end. I am like this for every Jewish chag, but more so for the shalosh regalim (pilgrimage holidays).
But now, here's one gripe I have: Personally, I am disgusted by the modern Jewish minhag of having kasher-le-Pesach bagels, pizza, pancakes, french toast and the like. What the heck is this?? The whole point of eliminating hametz is to ELIMINATE IT, for crying out loud. It should be 'bal yira'eh u-bal yimatzeh', not Pesach hametz look-alikes! The whole idea is to separate yourself from things hametzdik. I'm a little different that way...not only don't I miss hametz, I LOVE matzah, and tonight we will be making hamotzi on left over matzah shmurah. That's the way it is. For seudah shniyah we'll have challah, at a full seudah kiddish in shul.
But tonight, it's only hand shmurah for us - yum!!